自身

眼前的問題，並不是我一個人所能解決。
i feel so helpless in the situation now.
people are all saying different shit to me,
who should i listen to?
i start to doubt whether i am capable to do this anymore.
i really doubt.
i feel like i am confident enough on my way walk out the stage,
how can they keep commenting me on that?
they didn't help me, but comment on my act. who can i get help from?
they tell me one story, then talk behind my back in another story.
i feel so tired of being here.
tired of everything.
i love my music, but i could do nothing with it.
i wish i could be blind and deaf. seeing nothing, hearing nothing.
sometimes, i feel like, i should quit.
quit music, and start a new life.

i need a third party to tell me, do i have the potential to keep going,
or i should let it go, let it end here.